I'm having difficulty finding direction. There are many options for the next step staring me in the face. All i wanted when i came back was to ride my bike have some kind answer, but none had come, so brian and i packed up the bikes, went to vegas, the hoover dam, the grand canyon and ended up in Texas. I drove halfway across the country on a whim after two weeks of meeting you. Something chemical, you even said.
I suppose I was looking for something. Some kind of answer or direction, but i only found more options. Life is full of them, and its what I do with each that makes me who i am. Right now, I need a job. I think I'm just gunna be simple for a little bit and work at Whole Foods - and ride ride ride. It will give me the chance to enjoy myself, and focus on some real freelance design projects I feel more endeavored to.
Mostly I'm trying to figure out what exactly it is that I want out of life, out of my future, and what I'm here for. I've felt that I spread myself over many things and lack a follow through or motivation, or perhaps even a passion. I'm still finding the avenues, but I know my path will present itself gradually.
Burning Man and the post road trip adventure have given me the peace of mind to sit stare at the horizon, and take my time with a decision that I genuinely want. Relative happiness is a whole completeness within the individual. I am happy.
P.S. I can't write music, but here are two song titles from my trip: "I left my toothbrush in El Paso" & "Never been to Austin; Just thought I'd Go"
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