Solar emPowerment

I've been putting too much energy into the possibility of a relationship. I often feel destined to never have such a thing anyway, so perhaps that is the way it will be. I should just accept it and live my life the way I want to live it. Why am I here?

Instead, I must put my energy towards something to be passionate for. Design is great, riding bikes is great, family, friends are great, but I feel like I am destined for something greater than what I am doing now. What that is, I don't know. {yes you do} And I feel like it's travel and farming, but in all reality, it scares the shit out of me to realize what kind of a huge decision that is to quit an awesome job with a great future, have minimal or no possesions, and go farming (which will result in no paycheck) around the world. It will come to a point where I will actually have to make a solid decision to pull the proverbial trigger.

Why am I so vexed in societal norms? Why do I seek more than mere contentment?

{Retrospect: 1/6/10} It doesn't matter why. Just seek. Why ask that a tree grows? Feel the tree growing. It is bigger than you can imagine.