I'm taking a sick day tomorrow. As in, the cubicle makes me sick.

Today, I was part of a green home build with Habitat for Humanity. A select few individuals from my company were invited to participate in the volunteering alongside some members of the band Linkin Park and their social activism group Music for Relief. While I'm not a fan of this rip/rock alternative band currently, they made a mark on me in earlier years. Interesting how things come around.But I digress. I built the roof of a future home for some future family. That they can own, and be proud of, love. I even drew some hearts on rafters. Throwing down a hammer and lifting lumber while mixed with the rawness of manual labor mixed with the community building qualities of volunteer work empowered me to new levels for Atom Farm. The houses are all LEED Certified and the man in charge, Mark Van Lue, of making that all happen explained the measures in play that employed environmental consciousness and better science. Not just plunking a solar panel on the roof and calling it a day, but from the ground up; including landscaping and water usage, ventilation and insulation, materials used and location of raw parts.

I'm kind of hoping I get laid off. How alternative, given the status of the economy, I know. With the free time, I would be able to focus on my own clients and projects. This would accelerate my research and preparations for continuation of the path. In any case, I'd like to collect the unemployment and apprentice or intern under Mr. Van Lue, the gentleman who I met at the Habitat for Humanity build, get LEED certified, and add that notch of knowledge to the Atom Farm belt.
All the elements are coming together and I'm seeing the path so clearly these days. I feel so tapped in to life.

Future headline of an advertisement you might find in Craigslist:
"Technology infused Farm and sustainable CoOp Retreat seeks resident librarian to cultivate and maintain collection." They might come to the farm and I would help build their library/workshop/livespace. Now, lets take it a step further to include resident musicians, artists, bakers, yoga instructors, theatre workshops, astronomers, poets, horse handlers, cooks, fishers, gardeners, the list can go on.

I felt so motivated and alive afterwards that I didn't want to go sit in the box of work and consumerism tomorrow, and what better way to get fired than calling in sick when I'm not sick. But I would be sick if I went to work. So I called in to work to avoid getting sick.

The cubicle makes me sick.

There are no cubes in nature.

Life Parlayed

I've begun composing memoirs of past adventures to form in a book. I'll be co-writing a story that is based on mine and another individuals life exploits thus far. It started off just wanting to be experimental in design, so I needed to give myself a project. A friend from work (who is no longer with the company, but we've bridged the gap of interoffice fraternity beyond the cubicle) and I would have lunch together and rap about the epic adventures we've had. Some of them involving women or gnarly drug experiences, and the complexity of life and love. They say to write what you know, so we decided to parlay these ideas into a project and write a story in children's book style; one large spread inclusive of illustration/design and a paragraph or two of supporting storyline. We would use adult themes, with a whimsically visual execution.

Adventures to be illustrated & embellished with literary experimentation:

• Robin Hood Thursdays
• Hopping the train with Elliott in SC
  
• Cave Expedition with Brian
• European Backpacking Adventure
• Igloo building
• Burning Man (2007 & 2008)
• Road trip to Montana & NYE in the snow
• Road trip to Austin
• Visiting Dana in Taiwan
  
• love, complexity & levels of live. deep conversations in reaching at spiritual and metaphysical concepts

And to option my own thought with another thought I just had for the structure of such an epic book. The bible is a collection of stories and interesting occurrences told by multiple writers over different time periods.

This seems very similar.

Literally from the ground up

[about the family garden] ...and while a casual relationship with
gardening has been nice, I need to be fully immersed in all aspects to
reap the experience needed to one day establish my own sustainability.

Ffffound! Worthy

Through the Rabbit Hole I go. Rent free.

Its official. I have moved back into my parent's house.

Before judgment though, let me say, they're not living there. I will be house sitting for the next 9 months. Rent free? Why yes, I think I'll do that. That excellent comfort of the house I grew up in, barbecue and backyard with over 10 fruiting trees? You had me at rent free.

The next 9 months will fly by in a wink, I'm sure, but my goals are thusly:

1. Organize my shit - I'm an artist and a collector. Of what? I don't even know. All I know is i need to condense and reduce what I have.

2. Research WWOOF. With this boost in savings from not paying rent for the next 9 months, I'll be closer to my goal and therefore closer to journeying. I should do some specific research on where I want to farm, and what farms I would like to contact.

3. Finish projects I've started. Freelance work as well as personal projects.

4. Save money.

Life unfolds before me and I walk the path that I've drawn in my sketchbook.

Solar emPowerment

I've been putting too much energy into the possibility of a relationship. I often feel destined to never have such a thing anyway, so perhaps that is the way it will be. I should just accept it and live my life the way I want to live it. Why am I here?

Instead, I must put my energy towards something to be passionate for. Design is great, riding bikes is great, family, friends are great, but I feel like I am destined for something greater than what I am doing now. What that is, I don't know. {yes you do} And I feel like it's travel and farming, but in all reality, it scares the shit out of me to realize what kind of a huge decision that is to quit an awesome job with a great future, have minimal or no possesions, and go farming (which will result in no paycheck) around the world. It will come to a point where I will actually have to make a solid decision to pull the proverbial trigger.

Why am I so vexed in societal norms? Why do I seek more than mere contentment?

{Retrospect: 1/6/10} It doesn't matter why. Just seek. Why ask that a tree grows? Feel the tree growing. It is bigger than you can imagine.

Ideas

I don't drive a car.
I don't own a TV.
I don't eat meat.
I don't wear deodorant.
I don't use a microwave.

&

I work in the entertainment marketing industry, and I love my job.

.:adam

Ride Your Bike

{Retrospect 1/21/10} Haha. Oh how things change... not entirely, though, i guess. I still love design, I just know my creative talents can better serve humanity than making more money for conglomerate entertainment studios.

My favorite shadow.

Biciclette

On fait la course